Teary Smile

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Teary smileIs this a curse?Do we always have to want what we can’t get?Is love designed to hurt?Why am I not good for you although I always think you are the best for me?You think I can’t love you enough?You think I can’t walk the path with you?I am not as beautiful as the kind of woman you would want to love?I am straight but you want a figure 8?You want someone who would stress you up and make you stand on your toes -But I don’t want to be the reason why you worryI want to be the reason why you work at ease and make efforts to better you…But I see that’s not what you want!You love chasing but I made it too easyThen it melted every feeling you seemingly feltReduced it to nothing but Friendship… it is something though;But just “friendship” is nothing compared to the more I want -Hence I am tempted to stay awayTempted to run as far away as my legs can carry me,Tempted to hate you!But what I feel for you is beyond hatred,It’s beyond selfishness,It’s beyond the pain you cause me.Why do I always find myself in this situation?Unrequited love hurts!That I handle pain well doesn’t mean I deserve this much pain.Now I am burdened with being your friend. *Chuckles*If you decide to cut off from me totally;Probably to make me feel good or move onI am sure I will cry for days -But I will eventually stop crying,And the love chase will swing back by 60%I share a teary smile when you are happy -Happy talking about someone else.I am me, I can’t change.I am super happy for you,Although I am sad for me.I know this too shall pass -I know I will heal -And I also know I won’t stop loving you.I don’t know how I will survive this but I have to.I will start by making sure I don’t set my eyes on you;Looking at you makes me burn.Dear love, please get used to the idea of never seeing me again.I will be here to talk to you;Via mails, chats, phone calls any way possible:Asides seeing you eye to eye.Don’t even think of skype! It has virtually the same effect.I would walk out wherever I see you;Not because we are enemies,But because I can’t stand you anymore -Till I am fully healed.I don’t know how long this will takeBut I certainly hope it won’t be forever.This is not a poem, it’s not a letter, and it’s a not a romantic gesture.It’s a bleeding heart scribbling words from tears,Trying to make a decision.The kind of decision that’s almost impossible to stand by.I know I will miss you -I miss you as I type.I feel this sharp pain in my heart each time I think of you.But it will heal, right?It has to.

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3 comments

  1. Wow! This is so full of emotions. I couldn’t stop the tears from dropping because this is exactly how most people feel right now, how i wish i have the correct answer as to why the right people always have it rough with love while the reverse is the case for wrong the ones.

  2. This is me right now, how do I walk away “Tempted to run as far away as my legs can carry me,Tempted to hate you!But what I feel for you is beyond hatred,It’s beyond selfishness,It’s beyond the pain you cause me.Why do I always find myself in this situation?Unrequited love hurts!That I handle pain well doesn’t mean I deserve this much pain.It’s hurting me I feel this sharp pain in my heart each time I think of you.But it will heal, right?It has to.

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